YOSH...! finalllyyyyyyy....! XDDDDDD

after a few weeks of brain torture...my second semester is super duper finally over..lol...time do pass super quickly.. im gonna blog my whole second semester...n lastly...my final exam....XD

I started off my first semester in in Melaka...the first 2 weeks.. assignments are already piling up.. groups are already formed.. discussion have already started.. that particular day in campus...i checked the jpa portal...maaf...anda tidak dipilih...shiet...patah hati...haiz..rosak my whole damn day... then one of the night... my itchy hand went back to the jpa portal to recheck...who knows...i didnt get the overseas scholarship...but i got the local one...yay..! was so happy i almost fell down the stairs..i was delighted...yipeeeee......!!!! i didnt know that itchy hand of mine is gonna change my life forever. note the word..FOREVER...!!!! Had a discussion on Human Development video..i received a call from melaka admin statin that i have to go cyber to REGISTER JPA... they say NO NEED BRING ANYTHING....so stupidly me..went there...luckily i brought my personal documents..damn..they asked for it..then one of the people said i have to register into the hostel today itself...o.O...wth...oik...! i thought register nia...damn it... that moment...i felt like everything is crashing down...fuuuuush...my brain cells almost gone dead.. anyways...i dont have a choice though..i went to y new hostel.. i climbed all the way to the fourth floor..i almost run out of breath reaching the HIGHEST floor...jeeez... i found my room n there was a gurl n her mum there already..lucky her, she got the single bed...=__=..my dad went back to melaka n get all my stuff... ALL..!! he came back with like 6 plastic bags..plus my big black luggage...my computer bag...my carry bag...all those stuff...i was like...fourth floor men..! the guard wouldnt let my dad go up the hostel...NO MALE ALLOWED...=__=...terpaksa la.. walk up n down like 10 TIMES..!!! i think i looose almost 100 kg...=__=... after settling everything...i suddenly felt lonely..i realise i didnt even get to say proper goodbye..yesterday was like juz like any other normal day..n today was a total life changing...

more problems arise...im apparently the only january intake student in cyber who is under jpa..others are all newbies..felt super old..there are clashes between the subjects.. aish..yay me..new subjects....wopeeeee...=____=...entering a new class which started 3 weeks ago is super akward..i went in there...n the first thing i notice..all eyes were on u...great...lucky me, im the only chinese in 2 of y classes...english class was even weirder...they wont even bother on newbies entering the class...they mind their own business..atleast i get to know all my classmates in those 2 classes... i can barely remember a quarter of my classmates in english class... c'mon... why dumped me aside...! anyway...being alone is something not new to me..gotta get use to it...

first few weeks in cyber was super tough...finding classes was so confusing..lari sini lari sana...alamak eh...but......after atleast one month there...cyber seem small..haha..that happen when u wonder around...i realise that cyber food are mostly international...dude..there is only like one chinese stalls...and a few malay stalls...jeez....getting food is a problem..price of it is another!

mentioning about clubs...i joint like 4 clubs..but active in only about 3..lol..genius me..i join chinese language society.. i dont understand chinese completely though... i went to the AGM alone..why...? my fren last minute dumped me... i sat there like alone..everyone was like huhahing in chinese here n there..n clever me shutting up in a corner..sometimes, i felt as though i dont fit it..i dont belong there...aish..i dunno why...

this semester, i did join some event..why u ask me? social lo...anti social dude like me should join more..so i went to the PWC trip..an accounting trip...together with four of my frens.. we sat like in a row behind in the bus..where others sat infront...a huge wide gap separates us...we were like super noisy..cracking funny dirty jokes..doing some unmentionable actions..lol..we laugh like nobody business...but i do feel happy though...its been a while that i laugh my heart out.. mixing with them brings some joy in me..next thing i went for is the mid autumn festival..i was supposed to go with a fren..but kena ditched half way..jeez..nvm...i went anyway...aiyaaa...all speak chinese again...me stand there...play handphone..half way..i ran off..cnt tahan di...hahaha.....wonderful of me...the last thing i signed up for is the chinese new year extravagance event..lol..committee...hehe....wait next year to c it la..!

okok...last for this semester is my finals...hehehehehehehe...there is like 2 weeks before finals..and i was somewhere hanging...not yet prepared..for those 2 weeks..i stayed in the hostel...everyone went home..but i insist instayin.go back home sure xble belaja..haha..since my hostel are deserted..i went to my fren's rooom..i borrow her room..hers was first floor..easy ma..anything happen..lompat tingkap...xmati pun...XD...i stayed there and do short notes..exercises...ettc etc...sleepless night...i even felt asleep on the damn table..how did i did that?hahahahaha.....after a long exausting tiring preparation...finals...~...haha....conclusion...wait my result....then u know what i did was worth or not...

my next semester gonna be a whole lot of new challenges...btw, i only registered 3 subjects.. eng III, econ II and acc II...they haven offered comp app II...kinda free though...weee.....doesnt mean i can slacked off..!!!!!hehhehehe....

hand tired...xP

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thedevil

sumimasen...!

my blog is in a state of death...too busy lo...
i promise to blog bout the whole semester after my finals..!


^^

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insomnia...? nah...!

the weather outside is darkening...eyer...so moody one..i wan study leh! mood spoiler....
u say go sleep..haiz....i want to sleep so badly...but i cnt seem to close my damn eyelids...i lie on the bed...n i can see the ceiling ...i closed my eyes n hope to get some sleep..but after a few mins..i open it again..... haiz......can i wish to sleep forever...to close those eyes n neva open it again....to close it from the bright light n wonder into darkness... a darkness where u do not need think bout juz stare...

haiz..


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wargh....!! T.T...

one more week to finals!!! im still preparing..!! ish.....sob.... haiz.... i stayed in campus juz to study...n guess what...im blogging..lol..wth...haha.... why buss management so longgggggggggggggggg....
yer...so many thing to memorize leh...aduhai... human development some more...kek sei me ah! T.T...sob...MUET next month...wuu... at least can go back melaka n c my monkeys frens..!
buahahaha....zz.....

the feeling of being lonely is slowly overwhelming me again.. is not fair though...i left u guys..n now karma is bitting me in the ass... ppl are leaving me..jeez..i wonder will i ever survive next sems.. i seeem to be falling apart... i have to start to be more socialise...damn..lol..why ah..feels like so hard to talk to ppl...mybe i have no self of confidence..? or i simply dun wanna trust them..lol....ish....wake up la..!!!!!!

aish...! one more dilemma im facing...to study degree in melaka or cyber...haiz... im still thiking la.. my god.... cyber is so lonely...melaka is so friendly...not all but some.. jeez.... argh!
suan liau..



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What a rough week...=(

This monday was supposed to be a holiday for me..i planned to go to my frens house...n do some painting...and my luck..i was sick...jeez...i could barely get up in the morning..but thnk God its a holiday..i would have died if it is a school day... i woke up at 1pm.. i know i wanted to head for the bathroom...i felt a lil bit dizzy...in the end i was kneeing hard on the floor.. i knew i felt...my knee was hurting..ooof...!...i got up n went into the toilet..i took my handkerchief n wet it...soon...i was on the floor again..jeez....nice move huh.. the third time..i really fell..i pulled the shower host off..haha...i fell on my freaking ass...it hurts...zz..lol....first time like that...my god...haha...
what a rough week...

well, all my assignments n presentation are over..i only need to focus on finals...i have 2 weeks!
haha...i plan to stay in campus..but most of my frens are heading back...i felt im gonna be the only one there...wooot...scary huh...haha....haiz..no choice..i sacrifice for finals..=]...

the next thing i realise, my next semester is gonna be boring...i will have to face the same classmates in English III. same june intake students in Econs II... and new classmates for accounting II and Computer application II... im gonna miss u guys ...haha...there will be less laughter it seems....jeez..repeat that life again..



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My *painful* Tuesday Life...

I set my alarm clock at 7.40a.m.It rang.I turn it off.shit.thus.i woke up at 930am when my class supposed to be at 10am.T.T.and lucky me.my monthly process attack me exactly 930am.haiz.quickly ran to the toilet.brush my teeth.wet my hair n comb it as usual.wash my damn face.ran back to my room,change my clothes n stuff all my stuff into my bagpack plus my laptop.shoot.berat.argh.hungry.shit.945am already.no time.stuff biscuits in my back.wear my shoes n ran to 4th floor.fill water.ran all the way to class.class start from 10am till 4pm.two quizzes attack me at once.great.i attack accounting quiz well but i screw human development.jeez.do we need to learn all those shitty pregnancy?.my stomach ache.chew some biscuits.jeez.what an unhealthy daily meal.no choice.at 4pm.when to library to meet this dude.helped me with my laptop thingy.then finish.i walk all the way back to dorm.bought 9 pieces of nuggets.chew it all the way until almost 6pm.then go eat dinner.but i didnt eat.no appeitite.so i drank cold milo.great.worsen my condition.drag myself all the way back to 4th floor.tried to sleep.but it is freaking hot.damn.felt so sick.wake up at 730pm.on laptop.finish my slides.did my quiz.no mood.etc.etc...last..sleep...



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My Monday Life..

Mum forces me to wake up at 5.30a.m. I thought i was still dreaming as i was tired to even move a muscle. the next call. she pulled my blanket off me. the bright ceiling light burn my eyes. i could barely lift my eyelids open. with the lazy strength i have, i try searching for my blanket with my eyes closed. aha. gotcha.those soft blanket i quickly pulled to cover my face.it felt so cozy. with the cold air making it more comfortable.the last call came in.i know i wasnt dreaming.ok.ok.time to wake up.i forced my eyelids to open n face the bright light.argh.how i wanted to sleep more.walk lazily down my double decker bed.whops.careful.not to fall. i drag my body into the wet toilet.searched for my green toothbrush.found it.take it.rinse with water.covered it with toothpaste.hmm..mint flavor.as fresh as possible.stared at the mirror.told myself.new day.new hope.new obstacles.brushed my teeth.rinsed.wash my face.done.went down stair with two damn heavy bags on my shoulder.ouch.change into my clothes.comb my short hair.watered it here n there.walah.all dressed up.no make up.XD.went to the dining table.sat down on the hard wooden chair.stared at the cup of milo with the layer all dried up.closed my eyes n stirred it.dont wanna c where that dry layer ended up. drank it down my throat.ah.nice.wore my watch,bangles,n rings.take my bag.hop into the car.dad drove all the way to cyber.what a sleepy journey.reach.got down.2 bags on my shoulder.one file.one carry back.n my lunch.kiss dad goodbye.walk all the way to the fourth floor.my back.ouch. open the door slowly.roomate was still asleep.the sun was not up.put my stuff down.change clothes.n went to bed again.ahhh.woke up at 10.check email.fb.reply email.change into all black outfit.stuff books into bags.purse.wear my stocking and sportshoes.my ipod on.walk all the way to fosee.then.walk to FOM.after that,felt super stressed.went to library.borrowed 2 books.went to classes.gosh.more work.finally.went back at 4pm.eat.study.rest.haiz.then went to table tennis.played a while.went to CLS meeting alone.wow.really alone.god.went back at 10pm.eat mcd.studied.now blog.the end.



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Pictures...

let picture express it...my life in cyber....XD






























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it has to come to an end

well....what ever happen...it has to come to end rite?
maybe its already the end....
u move that way...i move this way.....i didnt expect it to happen this way...
since there is no way out, the only solution, u guys forget it n move ur own way...
easier rite? dont u think so...?
u wont cause trouble for each other..
aish.....after writing a blog super super long for u guys..
also x jadi...xlaku...
nvm la..i leave it to u guys...whatever u wanna do with that relationship we use to have,
up to u .... im just merely a part of that friendship dumped over here..
i wanted to be there so badly... ..then maybe it dont have to be this way...jeeez...
i dont wanna think about it, but my brain wont leave it alone...haiz...!!!!
nvm la...as time passes..who knows...i;ll be the first to forget...

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lately, i seem to be walking to class alone..jeez...sounds pathetic rite?
haiz....this happen when u r forced to start new....
i accept the fact that i have to do it..
its kinda depressing though to be walking alone in the big area accompanied by sad music..aish!
why am i complaining ehh?
so that i can express what i felt n feel relieve after that...
english class is making me frustrated...
u damn team mates...
haiz...............!!!!!!!
i did all the summary fuckingly alone..n have sleepless night thiking how to complete it..
when u guys can go skiiping around having fun...
when the lect ask, did all these guys contribute?
i was like...yes, they did....cuz u stupid ppl are standing next to me!
but im not satisfied...! after u guys went out...haha..too bad...ur gone, babe...
definitely gone for life...
haiz...then maybe later also i gone...aish...

atleast, there is still some fren whom is willing to talk to me...
yea...some...jeez...


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let me see....hmm..

its been quite some time since i blogged...lol...im not lazy ok?! juz no time..haha..giving reasons..lol..
anyways, the past few days was not exactly pleasant for me...im infected by allergies!! noooo!!
haha....i thought it was the dust...but then..i finally found out, it was cats! grrr...!
i should kick every cat i see...! lol... haiz...touch only ma...aduhai... i can barely sleep men!
itchy here n there...my leg swollen...= =...i felt like skinning of my skin..lol....anyways, it finally go off...weeeeeeeeeeeee.......hehe....

next, jpa..! damn u...where is my allowance la......i need money.............! its has been one and the half month..! lol..cepat cepat! haha.... oh yeah...my phd video present already!!!! wo hooo...!!!
do u know that it is very very very VERY...akward to see urself in the video...i can barely stare at the screen!!! haha...swt.'....

btw, i joined mmu melaka closed for table tennis..lol..why la i did it? i aint that good though...wuuu... aish...nvm la...gain experience ma...the training on monday was like hell..! wuush! there is this senior...wow..u should see his passion in table tennis..haha...he is the first person i;ve seen so far that is VERY passionate in table tennis...he did help me though...i watch the video he showed to me on how to play over n over again..lol...i nt sure whether i get it right though..haha...then he teach me how to smash...hahaha...smash..smash..! haha....
then around 9pm, most of them went back...left four of us..haha...we played double.. well, that is one of the best memory i can get in cyber so far....XDDDD

oh...i got 17.75 over 20 for mid term accounting...nooooooooooo!!!!!.. oik! not high enough ar!? well, NO..! haha...because ppl can get 19.95...no fairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...! haha...im gonna work like hell men...buahahahahahhaha....lol.....ok ok....


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