Something is so not right.....=(

i thought the sleeping problem was juz a minor one...who knows...damn.
went to bed at 2am, ended waking up at 3am..nightmare....= =...fuck.
the who night..i can barely close m eyes..everytime i close, it opens back..damn.
ended waking up at 6.30am..why?....no electricity...shiet.
i was awake by the sound of the fan stopping...sensitive aint i..?
no, cuz i wasnt really asleep. fuck.






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My 100th Post...!!!

yay...~
this is my 100th post..!!
wonder what so big deal...heheh....

tired.but cnt slee.insomnia.?.no way.
thinking too much.?.maybe.
who.?.you perhaps.aw.
have to get some rest.or i'll breakdown soon.
=(.
why.why.why.
haiz.




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Beta...? Degree......O.O....

in juz an estimation of 2 more months...i will be in degree level..no more foundation...thats freaking fast dude...!!! i havent enjoyed my foundation to the max yet! n i feel old now...lol..most of my friends in Cyber are still in foundation except mua..plus, goin to degree means makin new friends...gr...history repeats itself...gack..! i couldnt sleep at nite...this was one of the matter bothering me..would i ever be able to cope up in degree...? there's this fear in me that i might fail....T.T...negative of me...zz..for years i have not fail..failing once, will i ever get up again..? or will i juz stay down...? argh..damn it...stop thiking...zz..




how true am i to my own feelings...i can see...i can feel...but its hard for me to say..zz...


anyways, Happy Birthday dude...wishing the best for ya....X)


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The Past that shaped my Present....

I thank my past for who i am now..if it wasnt for the mistakes i did...i will be the same brat as i use to be...when i was in lower primary..i did all the bad stuff u ppl think a kid will never do..well..i did it..n im not proud of it..i hurt the ppl around me that loves me...i loose the years of friendship i built...i regretted for what i did..but that past i swore to not repeat...n from that moment i change..from the first year i enter i high school...i swore not to repeat those years i wasted..
I changed...not for the worse..but for the better..i started from the 3rd class..i move on from there...i swore i will aim for the best...n i did..i got what i wan..there is a moment when i felt happy..but after that...total blankness...i was unsure..why am i studying so hard...when i did my best...all they can say is..u can do better..n their expectation gets higher and higher without any limitations...through out my whole secondary life..the only thing that u kept duin was study...tuition..school..entertainment was barely visible on my list... n i can stand it..i get what i wan..i scored my spm...
applying for a scholarhip is so hard...my parents remind me when i was in high school..study hard n u can get a scholarship...for all the hard work i did..to even get a scholarship is as hard as hell..what a waste..entering college..i hope for a better life...a life which i can control...but sometimes...i need to be control..or i will loose track...im now unsure whehter am i on the right track...i am maintaining my current situation...zz....



but..college life do seem alot better...=]




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Sleepless Night.....=(

Recently...i can barely fall asleep...grr...i dunno why...i know im tired...but everytime i lie on the bed...i ended up staring at the ceiling..maybe im thiking too much gua..im not having insomnia am i?...O.O...haha...hope not..i even woke up early...wtf..i usually woke up super late during holidays...haha...T.T...

Holidays have started...n it only last a week...have assignments n stuff to do...not to mention midterm..T.T...feel so restless..what to dooooooooo....lol..wanted to go Time Square on monday...who wan cum..?..XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD



p.s: i love dimples...kawaiiii..=]




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A Pleasant Memory..

Wednesday was a public holiday...An outing was planned...we went to Sunway..lol..stupidly...that was my first time to sunway...>.<....haha...the night before that, i could barely sleep..not due to excitement..well, partially excited..alot of think is goin through my mind...zz..in the end, ended up sleepin at 3am n woke up at 7am...=____=..sitting in my fren car sumore la..dizzy dizzy...haha anyway..the outing was awesome though...haha..we actually wanted to karoke..ended up not goin...then we wanted to go scream park...also ended up not going...zz...we ended up playing archery..ahh..so nice..i should get back to training...hehe..been skipping for some time though...

Then, we went to ice skating...grrr...wearing the skates itself n standing up on solid floor itself also i can barely make it..haha..i predicted, the first thing i step into the ring, i will fall flat on my feet...n i did..=___=..wat an embarassment..i can barely control my legs..haha...in conclusion..i feel twice on my freaking ass...damn...haha...to add my embarassment..can barely stand up..dunno how to..zz..for the whole miserable one round..i was hanging my life on the side bar of the ring...haha...shiet..i pull myself all the way to the exit..twisted my foot though..grr...so i went out after going one round..i can barely feel my feet..haha..
zz...so i sat there n wait..

u came out n teman me..aww..so kind of u...kept forcing u in..u degil...thick skin..haha..anyways...thank u..though wasting ur money lu..T.T...lol...then later we went for dinner...Mr.Teppenyaki!!!!!...yay...nice nice...plus watermelon juice...=]]]..the we went for movie...'unstoppable'..nice show...adrenaline rush..haha..then later we went back..not bad though...it was fun..cuz gt u ma..haha..wanna hangout more...XD


~i dont mind being tease anyway..~




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Thank u...

u said.

~ today's the date where it's my 1st crush birthday. i had a crush with him for 2 years and i never confessed. i regretted not confessing. but i juz wanna tell u that when life is hard. take one step at de time. if u're liking somebody or missing somebody. take it slow. if he;s meant for u, he's yours. if not, den der's another guy out there. jus wanna tell u also. even if de world dislike u or betray u 1 day.i'll nver do it. coz i found a true fren. indeed a true fren. de one dats willing yo give constructive critisms and advices. u were there when i was sad/happy thanks alot. i cant describe how appreciative i am, so, honestly im not used saying stuff like this so yeah. juz wanna let u know dat if u need anone, jz come to me. i'll help whenever possible~.


thx u my dear fren..



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No longer underage..!!! yay....!

im now living the life i was born in..with intentions, hope an
awwd faith..
thx babes n dudes for the wishes...
some ppl may forget..
but as long as they are still there.. then its ok...
i celebrated earlier..with my family..although its simple..
the warm feeling is still there..
awww...i really really appreciate it..
it may a little bit lonely....
but i can manage it..
with those supports ...ntg is impossible for me..=]


EUNICE CHIN, u noob head...i owe u much...u r one of the closest school mate that is still with me..i really do appreciate it..u were there during those hard moments..
if i did any mistake, i apologise...u r truly a good fren..and i really appreciate the sms u send me that day...eunice ah...saranghae...=]


i love u peeps...



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