Love Relationship....

In these past few days, my lecturer and one of my friend kinda discuss bout love..sounds weird for a dude like me to be talking bout it as i never talked bout it the past few years..why? haha..well, i prefer not to involve in that relationship. I had a feeling that if I fall in love, I may want it to last forever. But, after seeing what my friends go through during their relationship, some are happy endings but some are just a break up ending.. I dont wanna put myself in that position.. yes, Im very protective. I protect myself because myself come first before others. It may sound stupid, but I make promise to myself that I wouldnt let myself fall in love. Even if I did.. I will not show it..
For now, I only wanted to score my studies..nothing else but that.. I manage to focus all out on my studies for 5 years in high school... but after entering college..everything started to mess up..
Lolx..im only 18 and im still very Naive..there is so many things to learn... I want to learn...

my lecturer said something bout 'love transmutation' where we use the love as a fuel to boost your passion for your studies and career. well, I dont believe bout that. For me, once I fall in Love, I might always miss that person n wanting to hear his voice n etc. I am not ready for that.
I do not prefer taking the risked. It does sound like im a coward. but everything i do, i put myself first. Education always i mean always come first. Taking risk is not my expertise..

anyway, whats wrong with single life..haha..no worries..no troubles.. freedom... lolx... so, I conclude.. i close the door of my heart for this moment period of time...till further notice..=]


peaced out
TheDevil