I love Acoustic...=]

this album was by Sabrina..a filipine gurl...wow..its super nice hearing it... its not original actually..she resang other artists songs.. but its nice anyhow..=]





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thedevil

ur like an asshole...

is it so hard to juz post it back..
why do i even bother trying..
jeez..
why did i even make that stupid step...
arent im a genius..
thiking that 'okay...lets try n c whether it can be'
i tried..n u did it to everyone else except me..
haha..funny rite...im the first one to post it up..
but i didnt get it back...
instead other of ur friends did..
haha..this is ridiculous...
i meant u..n u know who the hell u r..



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The Past..

My old classmates uploaded our primary pictures into facebook...lolx..

this picture was taken when i was 8 years old..XD
i am at the first row 3rd from left..

This one when i was 9..XP
1st row, 4th from left..

i felt amaze on how time fly by so quickly.. its kinda sad though..
i wish i could go back just being a kid..
undo all the mistakes i did..i meant then bad one...(u dun wanna know..XP)
i just wanna live that life again..where there is no worries..
free from budget constraint and all those stuff i have to worry as a teenager..
how nice if i can be a kid again..

all i can do is play around without worrying about stuff..
juz havin some friends to scream around with u...
haiz..i do miss those time..
as what adults will say.."grow up"..

i have to...no choice...but i dunt wanna..
being a kid is so amazing...
to see the world revolved around ur two eyes..
the ability to imagine...without ppl saying...its fake..
the feelin of being a kid..its really wonderful..
is as if...the whole world belongs to u...
is as if we are living in our own world..
a kid is able to put a smile on everyone faces...
the feelin as a small hand clutches against urs...
haiz....
what am i crappin...
but what i say its true..for me la..
being a kid is all i could ever wanted..
to restart a whole new life...
...XD....



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Refresh....XD

here's the thing...one trimester in MMU Univeristy sudah past..
i didnt expect it to be so damn fast...lolx..
there is so many things that happen throughout this few months...
friends, love, studies, enemies, sports, etc etc etc... n food...XD
my seniors said that entering college is like a whole new life.. u can start fresh..
make new friends but of course dont dump the old ones behind la..haha..
well...i did make some new friends and good one too ..
but...
i practically blew the "making more friends" thing...
i ended isolating myself aside..haha...stupid me...=.-"
i find it hard to get group members...i hate when it come to that scene..
where lecturers will say ' find your own group members'..
i will be like..'oh, shit....no one wants me..' =.="""""""""""
pathetic me...haha...
anyway, i will end up in a group also...haiz..
why am i so passive at communicating????
gene perhaps?..hmmm..dont think so..
or it just me..? exactly..!
c'mon dude..u dun wanna ended up alone do ya????!
=.-....

Next, studies...haha... so far i can say its all ok....except..!
Computer applications..that subject gives me "the" nightmare...
it gives me hell...!
T T...~
others was like superb..
somethin i realise that was different compare to high school..
i feel more relaxed when i was preparing for the examination..
i feel that there is time to prepared..
lolx..i duno how to explain lo... haha..=.-"
cross my finger i pass my examination...!
XD...

ok ok..next next...love perhaps?
when i first do this new blog..
i did mention somethin bout love n i didnt want it..
haha..but can i control that feelin..lolx...maybe not..0.0...
lolx...i didnt expect anythin..
i just wanna focus on my studies n score perhaps..
my parents warn me..no love no love..
i was like...ok lu..not intended to have one anyway...
and then......haha....
lolx...everything is a mess rite..?
i cnt recall how we met...but im glad that i have met u..
wont be seeing u in a few month though...
haiz..i felt like im gonna miss u...=]
ok..enough bout that already....!

enemies.....haiz...
do i even have to mention..
i dont have any enemies la...bloggie..
i dunt even know what to call it...=.-...
next....!

foodddd....
god...this ar..
my senior say the main reason she shift to cyber is because of melaka's food..
is so damn cheap wey...
she said she gained 6kg in 2 months..i was like ...0.0..
okay okay..self control..XD
haha...
lolx..cant barely imagine....waliau..
seriously, melaka food is so much cheaper..
i dunt wanna shift to cyber..the livin expenses there is blood sucking!
i wanna stay in melaka..
but some people are forcing me to cyber...=.-...""

ok...lets see...what else amazing happen..
for after a million decade...i went swimmin..lolx..ixora there...
oo..i even played snooker...shh...secret ya..!...XD
that one particular day... i stayed in the uni until 130am...
haha..that was a blast for my brain...
i miss playin ping pong...i have no one to accompany me now..haiz..leave it..

scholarship...disastrous...T T...
mmu punya x dapat...aduhai...
then the petronas pun din get..
jpa also x dapat..sui betul..
but somehow...thx to jessica..
she told me bout mca..
they try to help for those whom didnt get jpa..
yosh...got chance..!!
XD
thx ya jess...si sotong..XD

haiz...so many things happen in such a short period of time..
geeeeeeeeeeeeez...time, dunt past so fast...i wanna enjoy those moments..
haiz...T T...

amelia...i addicted to yiruma...shit..!!!
XD


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Last day of my first trimester....

can u imagine how time fly so damn freaking fast....?
it felt like it was just yesterday that i took a step into the exam hall for spm...
n today im in college preparing for the final paper...
why time pass so quickly...
where do time need to rush...?
why cant u move a little bit slower..
haha...impossible rite...
lolx...
anyway...i really do hope time can pass slowly...
cause i still wan to enjoy my study life..i dont wanna step into the reality world..
its too early n im so unexperienced....
if i can study long enough...then i will be prepared...
haiz....=]


anyway, since it is the last day..i woke up at 7am..
packed my stuff to go back kl..wow..alot stuff ...^ ^
went for breakfast...when i stepped out my house..
the sky was dull, cloudy and grey..
was a gloomy condition... really seem like a sad day...
i stared at the sky for a while...wondering how long can i be here....
when i came to the library..it was not open yet... 30 mins more..
i have no choice so i sat at the floor n flipped through y papers..
before that, my dad asked me..why need go so early...rest la..
haha...i was like..=.=..
i really do want to study hard... i force myself jus to be diligent..
in the end..it may be worth it.. i know it will no matter what..
cause only i know how hard i worked..
only i know how hard i struggle..
i did what best for me..
and i definitely know that studyin is the best way to distract from thikin..
haiz...but its gonna end today... i dont wanna think again...
help me to stop thiking..because im unable to do it alone..
i sound pathetic... why cant i stop my mind from thikin...
go away u stupid thoughts... get out of my life...ur destroyin me..
damn it....



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thedevil

im sorry...

i thought the least i could do is lessen down ur burden..
but i didnt manage to do it...
im so sorry...


damn it...!


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thedevil

damn it...i broke it again...!

damn it...
why do the hell do i have to do this to myself..
i mend it...n i dun wanna put hope..
but then u give me that hope...
maybe its just a false hope..
i misunderstand it...
it was my fault to misinterpret that hope..
being in this condition really kills me..
why do i have to torture my mind n my heart...?
am i that desperate...?
damn myself....stop thinking n stop hoping..
cause i know that it is impossible...
but why the hell do i have to give myself hope...?
why do this ...?
i drop tears juz because of this..
i wasted those tears...
i regretted to have ever put hope...
this tears are not meant for u...
i broke it before even finishing mending it..
i was naive n stupid.. i didnt think properly...
i didnt think of the consequences...
and the effect that will cause me..
but its too late to consider that...
cause it has already happen...
have u ever consider how i felt...?
its my damn fault for not taking care of my feelings...
i let it fly... n now this happen...
i should have locked it in the first place...
n never let it out..
but why do u have the keys to my cage...?
why do u have to try to open it...
why do u have to open it n then care for it..
n then release it into the reality world..
n never have to care for it again...
why do u have to do this to me....


why did i did this to myself..
why did i cause myself all the misery...
god damn it... T T



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thedevil

music to wonder off my soul.....

I woke up at 730 am... lolx..planned to go to the uni... haiz....
suddenly no mood lo..haha...

i on my laptop....and kenny g fills my ear...his music was superb...
it was so relaxing...haha....
how nice if my life was as smooth as his music..
kinda impossible..there is always up n down...lolx...
recently i dunno why...i got addicted to instrumental songs especially..
Kenny G n Yiruma....
why o....?
lolx..too stress gua...or maybe i become too soft...=.=..
hha..hell no...XD
i realise that this kind of music is a little bit better compare to my other songs..=]
im really out of my mind...


anyway....
later hangin out....haha...if my dad founds out...
u guys wont be seeing me anymore in the uni..0.0..
haha...cross my finger he wont find out...!!
hang out watchin movie...the nightmare on elm's street..
haha..sound scary...first time watching horror movie..
swt...btw..its 18+...haha,,,im only 17+.....=="""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
lolx......k lo...wanna ready go uni...XD



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i love rings....XP

this post i dedicate to my rings i own...lolx... i dunno why but i juz love rings..XD

The first ring i bought....XD

I love this ring o...my horoscope...=]

My Birthday Gift....XD

I really thank my friend... i wore it most of the time..XD

last but not least...this one is very special...
compare to the others..this one is simple n nice...
and i love it...not engagement ring ya...^^




My hand with 5 rings!!
i want more!!!!!
^^

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aishiteru... what a girl wants to hear...

Girl : Thanks for the fun day
Boy : No problem
Girl : Can i ask you a few questions?
Boy : Sure... 0.0..
Girl : Be honest..
Have i ever crossed your mind?
Boy : No...
Girl : Do you like me...?
Boy : No...
Girl : Do you want me..?
Boy : No...
Girl : Would you cry if I left...?
Boy : No...Girl : Would you live for me..?
Boy : No...
Girl : Would you do anything for me..?
Boy : No...
Girl : Choose me or your life...
Boy : My life...

The girl ran away in shock depression...
The boy ran after her and told her...

~The reason you never cross my mind is because.. you are always in my mind..~
~The reason why i dont like you because............. I love you..~
~The reason why I dont want because................. I need you..~
~The reason why i wouldnt cry if you left because...i'll die if you left...~
~The reason why i wouldnt live for you because... i'll die for you....~
~The reason why im not willing to do anything for u ..i will do anything for you..~
~The reason why i choose my life is because... you're my life..~

... ...
....... The End ..........
.............. ................




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thedevil

T T....ouch..

yesterday slept at 1am juz to swallow economic subject...aiyooo...penat o..
then today woke up at 730am pulak... why so early o?? sleep longer la.. .
haha..dun wan la..dun wan waste time..
eh..u know what..
this mornin when i get up..dont know why a bit dizzy..
n i dunno how i can roll off the bed...T T..
landed the floor with a *thump*
*ouch*...my ass...
lolx..so weird la.. laugh to myself some more...
i think im goin crazy already...0.0...
haha....
anyway.... i reached the uni at 830 am..
so now im at sri emas...alone...T T..
so cham..
anyway...its quite n peaceful though....
haha...ok..off to study!
sayonara!!!!!




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thedevil

a new ring...=]

yosh....got a new ring...
thx ya!!
XD
this ring is thinner compare to others...
haha....
wisshing...wishing...=]



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oooooooooooo.....math over......XD

yosh...!!!!!
business math over already....!!
let me see...how was it ar...
haha...
i think quite ok lo...
quite easy....
i answered all the 5 question although only 4 ..show off..=.=..
haha..no la..
better answer all...then can take the highest lo...XD
only got one question i cannot do...
linear inequalities....shit betul...=.=..
leave it half way..
haha..i dont depend on that anyway..haha...
now in src lo..wanna do english...
very tired lo...tried to sleep..haiz...x tau la..x ble tidur...
T T...
anyway...ganbateh!!!!!!





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...dot..dot..dot....

recently, i have to wake up early n sleep super late juz to revise for finals..
wah seh... luckily still can tahan...
phewww.....
my major problem is....i didnt get mmu scholarship...T T
shit o.....
haiz...
depend on others now...
was kinda hoping to get that so i can continue here..lolx...
jeeeeezzzz men...
anyway...the main problem also havent kau tim..
banyak susah la u...
why make me like this..
whatever u have in your mind..keep it to urself..
there is no need to publish it..
you make me feel like its all my fault..
u make me feel "bersalah"..
dont do this to me...


there is a specific guy said that i am very negative..
negative aura surrounding me...
maybe i didnt realise it..
n maybe thats the main reason why i kept causin myself troubles..
n thats why i rarely mix with people...
people avoided me...
im not asking for sympathy..because im used to the condition i am..
i do not mix much around with people...
haiz...dont emo la...


...
.....
...........

anyone wanna hear me??
too much inside already..



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thedevil

no........T T

mmu scholarship.....gone...arghhh....
haiz....
thats one of the scholarship i hope to get...
aduhai.....
T T
what to say.......




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wahh....!

shit....u cannot do this to me...i wont fall for it....!
yup....i wont fall for it....
nope.....i wont fall for it....
no way....




shit


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thedevil

oh...

okay...haha...blogging again....now in the library..lolx..
why blog again o?
haha.....XD

cause....
i suddenly realise that about 2 more weeks first trimester end...
that is not the problem..
the problem is...
jpa scholarship n some other scholarship coming out...
suddenly it pop in my mind...
how am i gonna decide if i get one of those.......?
@.@...
aish..... haiz...
this is where people will start to say...
"appreciate those around u.."
T T...
currently...i spoilt it...
haiz....




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another hectic day..here i come..! yosssh!

wednesday 12/5/2010...7.36am
mornin....^^
blogging pulak...haha...^^"
woke up at 7am ..haha...super early... gonna make breakfast later...hungry di o...
then............................................ go library at 9am...haiz..just to book a damn spot...
go late means...no space... haiz...get up early because of that..=.="""
then my day is plan is to......stay in the uni n study till night...=]
coz..if i come home..mesti susah nia wan study...so suffer myself stay at uni..haha..nice plan..
but..but...but...
im super exhausted...come back late...sleep late...wake up early pulak...some more..got sleepin problems....nak tutup mata pun susah...T T
amoi ar...apa yang u fikir o...?
i pun tak tau...=.=""
nevermind!!
one week nia...can tahan one....!
if cannot means...pengsan there la...haha....><
nah....i have been through harder times...
so...ganbatteh!!!
YOSH....! XD



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thedevil

hectic day ... T T

yosh!
today was...eh...a normal tuesday... jus like any other day....=.=...rite..
haiz...woke up at 630 am...just to go econs class...
rajin o...=="
walk all the way to my friends house...when..say a dead rat on the road..
fresh one..0.0...ewwww...
jalan with her to the uni...waliau,,hot leh...tired leh..stop complainin la..XP
when i reached there...everyone was outside the class..
seems like clc room was all closed...=.="
went all the way to the 2nd floor... found a small room...lolx..
anyway.. econs class was superb nice..
then went to the library...first thing!..facebook...lolx..exam o..
haha...XD
started doin past year math ques..do..do..do..until kepala pening...
go lunch..lolx..hungry o...
then got eng class at 2pm..waliau...i waited there alone men...=.="
then in the end only 4 ppl turn out....swt...at least i learn something..
dunno why leh...i always go class even though other ppl no go..
lolx...
then...went back library again...like my home already...=.="
study computer applications..hard like hell..do noted until chapter 6 already...=]
3 more to go!
yosh!!! ganbatteh!!
=.="
now leh..still in library...bloggin sumore..
haiz.. plan to stay until 10 pm...T T..die la...
nevermind! one week only!..XD
can one!! haha...i face harder time than this...
so...piece of cake....XD
yosh!



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enough...im tired...

two more weeks..before the first trimester end..still.... no communication ...
however...u seem happier.. laughing with bunch of frens..
while i stupidly making my life misery by thiking bout it..
u dont seem to bother... do i need to care....?
that is a stupid question...of course i need to.. im a divider between u ppl..
i dont wanna do that...

i hate myself for putting u guys into that condition..
and most, i hate myself for putting myself into this condition..
college years should be fun for me.. as i wanted it..
i wanted to balance it...
i wanted to change for a better me..
i thought ' hey, i could be different... i could start fresh.. be more socialable..why not?'
because no one there know the real me..except myself..
unfortunately, i ended up like this...
i conclude...its my fault that i ended up like this...
i should have known better to watch my steps..
but i accidentally took the wrong one..

all this thiking have got to stop..
i cannot bear thiking bout it when u dont even bother...
thiking it makes me more exausted..
really silly of me...
so, i had enough of all those stuff...
i give up.. i have no idea what is the next step...
i let u decide ba... i let the situation decide...
yes or no... who gives a damn..

it may sound like im selfish..
but im sorry... i really tired..
if i keep thikin..who knows....what will happen... i myself cannot predict...


but, can i stop thikin?
that one i have to answer myself....
..
....
.....



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Shell Scholarship Interview....

okay okay...here's the thing.. first time in my life.. i was interviewed through the phone... =.-"
this is so super akward... shell company called me yesterday saying that they will interview me through the phone... i was like...is this a joke? haha~ unfortunately no... haiz...

looking at the bright side...i no need to dress up formally..haha..no need to worry bout my look.. or how i sit n hand gestures and those stuff.. anyways.. they called me exactly at 10 am..=.=... punctuality is very important..haha... she said that the interview will be divided into 2 parts..
the first one was about my achievement and the second was bout a discussion... lolx.. i was sitting in a room which was dark n quiet... but ppl still come in banging the door...==

the lady asked what was my best achievement in cocuricular...and what i gained from it and stuff..
that was kinda the easy part.. the 2 nd part was like shit!..T T
well, she ask me to choose a topic n chose about how internet helps in business...basically, there was zero time for me to think...so........ i manage to come out with some points..and she attacked me with more questions...=.=.... haiz...~
what to do....answer la.. haha....
then finally it came to an end...she asked me whether i have any questions. the first thing i asked was, "why interview through the phone?"
lolx~ she said it is common because that is how the company did it...lolx..swt..=.="
in two weeks time...the result will be out..

cross my finger...><



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Shell Scholarship~

today at 445pm...was in my english class...when my phone rang..=.=...
oo... people from shell company...bout the scholarship..
wooooot~
nice...XD
tomoro got interview...0.0
thank God..they say interview through phone..
waliau...first time interview through phone...haha...XD
10am....haiz...be prepare ya....
dont mumble..speak with confidence...=]

God bless me...


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TheDevil

Hey, Soul Sister..

Hey, hey, hey

Your lipstick stains
on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you,
and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moon beam,
the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided,
you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister,
ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo,
the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister,
I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Just in time,
I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction,
a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed,
my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna,
and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister,
ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo,
the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister,
I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can cut a rug,
watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug,
you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally,
in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister,
ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo,
the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister,
I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister,
I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Tonight

~ i love this song so much... sing for me..?
..
...
......haiz....




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thedevil

plz...

i beg u all not to force me plz..
by forcing me..ur making more stress..
every day..i kept thikin bout it..
how to solve? how to solve?
its not easy... i really dont know how to solve it..
dont explode yet..
cuz i myself haven exploded..
so ..plz for now... keep it to urself first ok..
plz... dont force me..
i know its my fault... u all stuck between...
but i know u meant to care..
haiz... but..
anyways....
..



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Jpa result-------> 3rd week of May.....

waliau...jpa scholarship...cum ma li cum...
faster la abit.. why so long.......!
i wanna know the result...!!
if cnt get mean....0.0..
im stuck here.....~
T T.....
if can get means...im off....!
XD
maybe im juz using reasons to run...
haiz...so many masalah...i dont like it here....
i wanna escape into my own world...
where there is no need to think bout that..
that problem is really brain damaging...T T



cum...cum..lai..lai....mari..mari...



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thedevil

smiling is not my expertise...

why am i blogging so many time in one day...=.="
who cares,...my blog anyway...XD


recently, one of my internation friend ask me...
"why u do not smile in class"
haha...swt...=.-"
let me see...i dunno why la..
maybe im used to it already..
there is so many problems n stuff to think n solve..
until wanna smile also so hard..
or maybe i just wanna focus on studyin??
takkan la smile also so hard meh?????
stupid la u...=="
i find smiling kinda hard for me..
maybe im just to serious..haha...swt..=.=""
dude...dont be too serious la..
ppl are avoidin u already... no many fren leh..
what can i do...i like that lu..
most ppl speak chinese..i tgk je..
maybe im not socialable enough..
the truth it...
i somehow like being alone...it gives me the time to think
and reset my goals n what i am here for..
its somehow a peaceful thing for me..
sounds weird huh? haha~
the only disadvantage is, very hard to make frens...
and when it comes to findin a group... i have to find people..
no ones want me...lolx..sounds pathetic..
anyway, im like that..
what can i do...? any brilliant suggestions?? T T~

haiz...~



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Vanilla Twilight......

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here



haiz....T T




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thedevil

give me a hug....

a special thanks to a friend of mine..
ur willing to give me a hug..
thats is so nice of u..
and i do need one now..=]



=]



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