damn it...i broke it again...!

damn it...
why do the hell do i have to do this to myself..
i mend it...n i dun wanna put hope..
but then u give me that hope...
maybe its just a false hope..
i misunderstand it...
it was my fault to misinterpret that hope..
being in this condition really kills me..
why do i have to torture my mind n my heart...?
am i that desperate...?
damn myself....stop thinking n stop hoping..
cause i know that it is impossible...
but why the hell do i have to give myself hope...?
why do this ...?
i drop tears juz because of this..
i wasted those tears...
i regretted to have ever put hope...
this tears are not meant for u...
i broke it before even finishing mending it..
i was naive n stupid.. i didnt think properly...
i didnt think of the consequences...
and the effect that will cause me..
but its too late to consider that...
cause it has already happen...
have u ever consider how i felt...?
its my damn fault for not taking care of my feelings...
i let it fly... n now this happen...
i should have locked it in the first place...
n never let it out..
but why do u have the keys to my cage...?
why do u have to try to open it...
why do u have to open it n then care for it..
n then release it into the reality world..
n never have to care for it again...
why do u have to do this to me....


why did i did this to myself..
why did i cause myself all the misery...
god damn it... T T



peaced out
thedevil