Darn it....

its 830 in the morning and i am blogging...
dunno why suddenly i have the urge to blog...
since i've been here...only this blog i am able to express what i felt...
no one here are willing to listen... not because they are not exactly not willing...
but because i havent put my trust in them...
why am i being like this..i nt sure why...
as i went through that website... the feeling of joy over there causes me sorrows over here..
i can only look and imagine...but i cannot feel the same u ppl did...
i wanted to feel tht feeling again...
but somehow it seems impossible...
every night is a sleepless night... there is always something that me thiking..
the place here is lonely...but somehow i will manage..
i dont wanna spoil my current life..as i am gonna go through this for another 4 years...
but hell, i do miss the joy of being over there..surrounded by the warmness of friendship..
the word friendship are somehow getting smaller here..

will it dissapear...? God Knows..


peaced out
thedevil