i have no idea....=(

this post i specially dedicated to u 3 monkeys in melaka...u know who u are...
well, i cannot say much, cause im not there to witnessed it with my own eyes...
i dont know how it started.. what happen... why it happen... the only thing i know, there is not yet an ending to it... i wonder why it happen after i left la.. who have it gotta happen between u guys? haiz.... let me juz ask u guys simple questions...

-do u guys still treasure the friendship that u have created?
-do u guys still care for the friendship that u have?
-do guys even bother taking care?
-do guys have the feeling of emptiness in ur life now?
(i do.. cause i left u guys...there is stiill a hole in my soul that i uncovered)
-dont u guys have feelings?


if u say yes, plz... i beg of u all...sit down...talk to each other.. the problem that u have against each other...blurt it out.. make each other realise whats wrong... i dont want this friendship to juz end like that... a true friendship bond cannot be easily formed just like that...i know that, because i myself am experiencing the hardship of it..u guys are surrounded with good, kind and caring friends...why r u destroyin it over small matter? i really beg u all to think over...think of the hapiness we use to feel when we were together...the genuine laughter n smile we shared... that memories we used to have are genuine..they are not fake... they are never fake...

if u say no, i dont care about it... ok fine...basically, ur saying that ur not going to care anymore.. maybe ur tired or sick about it? are u really sure...? if u really really do not want to care...ok... up to u... maybe ur not fit enough for the friendship bond...or maybe this friendship are not meant to be... if u really can turn ur back away n walk out of this friendship that we together have created... then go ahead...i will throw red carpets for u... u walk on it n never turn back... u people do not realise do u? do u know how hard is it to make true friends? i myself can barely get enough friends here... most of them are having a gang of their own..and im isolated at the corner..without those friends, do u know how miserable life could be?..

people do change in life.. u cannot expect him/her to be like that forever.. we change...we change due to the environment around us..due to the friends we hang out with... i myself cannot guarantee i will not change...i have to change to adapt to the condition i am in now... the only thing u guys can probably do is compromise... cope up with each other attitude.. if that person is changing towards the negative side, pull him/her back...remind him/her of who he really was.. if he/her is changing for the better...do let it... like i say, u cnt keep a person the way u want forever..its impossible..

and u... u may not realise ur changing...listen to ur friends whom is telling u...they have eyes.. they can see whther ur changing or not way better than u do...because u urself may not know...believe the words of the friend u trust.. this will help u.. u may say.."i where got change? i am still the same me"... r u 100% sure? ask urself this....am i still the old me... like i say people do change...look around at the friend u are hanging most with now.. the type of friends u hang out with will have the biggest impact on ur attitude n ur behaviour... ur in college now..ur not going back home where ur parents live... u r more often with ur peers.. choose wisely of whom u hang out with....

maybe i say too much... i can barely have a good rest without thiking about this matter.. i kept thiking why does this have to happen..each of u are stubborn... my gawd..like hell u are... i cant help much...as im in cyber..hours away from ur campus...i do wish i was there..then maybe this would not happen....maybe...jeeeez.....

one last wish from me, plz do sit n talk out ur problems among u guys...juz the 3 of u... no third party involve..they will make thing worst...can u guys do that?



peaced out
thedevil